Grief

I am moving. I am morphing. The person who I once was is in hibernation and a new me is coming alive. I had a dream of an apple tree that had apples all over the ground around it. Each apple on the ground had a bite taken out of it. The apple tree was growing in soil that was weak. I feel this dream represents the grief I feel for everything that is changing. I have knowledge now, represented by the apple tree, but too much knowledge that is spread all around. In this time of many changes I am going to look for a transfer at work. This new me realizes that I don't have to be perfect. I like the decision.

rabbit

I am used to a horizon that is flat and unvarying against a clear sky. Driving and walking through these flat places has taught me that when you are in a space expecting very little that the slightest variation can be very exciting. One time I was walking in a flat Idaho prairie, for example, and a jack rabbit sprung out of the landscape and bounded off. He had such big feet that stuck up like exclamation points. This I think is similar to how we have to have low expectations for what we think will happen in our lives, so that when something does happen it is always a pleasant surprise.

Roommate

I'm getting ready to rent out my room to and have a roommate. I have wanted to do this for a long time. Now, I feel nervous. What if things don't go well? My townhouse is not really that big. What if they are loud when I am trying to sleep? I know this is a good idea, it just seems a little overwhelming. The extra money aspect can't be denied. It's a small thing to be brave about and it could have potential great benefits. Maybe better to be brave about small things than to have to be brave about something BIG.