Artiste I Am Not

It's tricky for me because I always get ideas for stories and artwork. I am so busy I never think I can bring them to fruition. And also, I don't want to do the work on them. I know how much work it takes to create something in that way. Then there are other times I just enjoy the beauty around me. I feel paintings, enjoy their source of life that they give. I imbibe. I feel refreshed. There is so much pressure all around me to be an artiste, to conceptualize something. I feel scared that if I don't nothing will be left behind. However, it is being in the moment that is really the most uttermost important thing. Enjoying and looking and learning are the most essential.