Staying awake and alive last night thinking about an old boyfriend. Yuck! Many thoughts about why such and such happpened, what we meant to each other.....trying to wrangle some meaning out of the wreckage. Trying to do this crazier than trying to jump on a charging elephant's face. The elephant doesn't like it, and you feel like, why did I do that?
So no new meaning was discovered last night, except I miss him. And I think he is a good person. Today was an overwhelming day. Spent mostly on the couch and then had a phone call from my parents that was as if they had specially picked out today to call and give me a guilt trip. Similar to when people call you to wish you a happy birthday, but this was like a happy "guilt-trip eve" call.
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