When I feel gratitude, I feel a sense of adventure - like when I am driving home during a snow storm. My inner man comes out when I do that and I feel so grateful for the opportunity to just drive. It's not a brash or out of control feeling, mostly it's just an amazing one. More about my inner man in further posts. He's a little shy about coming out. I don't know his name or what he looks like. I know what his mind is like but not really important things like how to tell him to sit out or be quiet if he is getting into my affairs.
He is a flower with roots.
I think my mind is just so imaginative because I made a mistake at work and I am afraid that I will have to face up to it in a really castigating way. Those kind of things make my mind stretch out. It feels uncomfortable. It happens even though the place where I work is supportive when mistakes happen, and of me. Is writing these crazy words about silly things like having an inner man what makes me scared that people won't support me? Can I walk in a humble path that God made for me and still explore the idea of an inner man? Once someone talked to me about my inner man before I was ready to hear about him and it almost killed me. From both of our visions he is a football player with wings. American football.
Here is a toast to the life of my inner man and inner woman.
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