Grateful Journal

In the Barnes and Noble books there was a kitschy "Grateful Journal" which was on sale. Excercise One: List everything you did during the day and celebrate it. I bought a new mattress and decided for something super soft. I bought new goggles (always losing them) and went swimming. I ate a good breakfast and I babysat at church. Last weekend I was so tired I didn't do anything. I looked at some of my demons: I'm worried about such and such. So and so person might say something about me. There's a very defensive and reactive part of me. I can play my defensive off as a wise problem solver. Really I'm crumbling inside cause I'm scared. Like a flower that's been picked. Scared I will wilt. According to this grateful journal I will know that I am grateful when I am no longer scared. Or angry. I will have hope.